The Wall

"Tomorrow is a mystery, yesterday is history. Today is a gift. That's why we call it the present." Kung Fu Panda

I used to think that staying home alone on a Saturday night was depressing.  Like, what’s wrong with me, shouldn’t I be out having fun and socializing with people?

Well, a lot’s changed in my life and how I perceive things.. it doesn’t matter that I live in Vegas or that my friends are VIP and go to the best parties or that there’s an excuse to go out practically every night here..

I may live physically in Vegas but my mind’s in Oregon.  What that means is that I think that I mentally live in Oregon although I’m here in Vegas.  So when friends invite me to go out, I just think to myself “I can’t, I’m all the way in Oregon, it’s impossible”.. and I end up staying in.  And the next day I feel great and so thankful that I did stay in.  Going out doesn’t appeal to me like it used to.  I’m not trying to get wasted or get laid.  I want to stay focused on what I’m doing, and that’s building my business and my future.  I haven’t used my brain to its full potential in the past, opting to waste time with people that just wanted to party and nothing else..  I finally feel powerful as staying focused and on schedule has made me super productive and helped me to achieve some short-term goals.. a long-term goal is financial freedom and I’m giving myself two years to get there..

Another distraction is girls.. having been a dancer in this city, I’ve encountered plenty and I used to think it was cool to go out with girls every weekend.. all my friends would say how lucky i was and think i was so cool.. but in the end, was it all worth it?  I have some crazy cool memories but I also have plenty of wasted times.. getting stupid and chasing chicks.. and for what?  Just to feel more alone as I wasn’t ever going to meet someone quality at my show or at the club.  Sure there’s a chance but it’s practically slim to none.  The kind of girl I want as a GF is someone who’s not just beautiful on the outside, but intelligent, funny, a great heart and someone who values others for who they are on the inside, and not for how cool they portray themselves to be or how much money they flash just to get attention.. this town is so full of fakers chasing fakers.. it’s like, we’re all advertising how cool we are on the outside, but really hiding how insecure we are on the inside.

I don’t care anymore about how cool people think I am.  I’m a dork and proud of it!  I’ll always be me and won’t change for anyone.  I used to compromise in order to keep up with friends, but now realize I was just keeping up because i wasn’t strong enough to stand for what I believe in.

So now things have changed.  If you want to be my friend, you better be a good person first of all, you should enjoy hanging out at the gym or having lunch.. I’m not about late nights and getting f**ked up.. be a motivator, a supporter, have big goals and a strong drive to be the best..  and then we can hang!

So it’s Saturday night and I’m happy to chill with my dogs and watch some netflix.  Tomorrow I got lunch with the family and some house painting to do.  After that, business as usual!

If you want to party with me, let’s plan to go crazy in 2012, when I’ll be flying first class to my timeshare in Brazil.  Peace!

So here’s something not a lot of people like to talk about.  Getting tested for STD’s!

Yeah, I know it’s not a lot of fun to think about.. STD’s are gross so you usually try to keep it out of your head.  But bottom line: If you want to have fun in the sack, you should at least know that you’re safe AS WELL as your partner.

So now it comes down to getting tested.  How do you do this?  Well, I learned a while back that even with health insurance, I had to pay full price at the labs for the tests (over $800!).  My doctor didn’t know the costs, just wrote me a prescription for it.  When I went to the lab, they said that the tests weren’t covered under “Preventative Maintenance”.  I was like “Wow, so insurance companies are helping to discourage people from getting tested.  Great!”.  An STD test should be economical and encouraged.  It’s ridiculous that it costs this much.

So I did some research and I found some great solutions.

#1)  If you’re in Las Vegas, go to the Southern Nevada Health District (http://www.southernnevadahealthdistrict.org/std-clinic/index.php).  There you can get screened for only $30.   They test for HIV, Hepatitis, Chlamydia and Gonorrhea.

#2)  If you don’t live in Las Vegas, go to: http://www.gytnow.org.   This site (sponsored by MTV) will take you to a directory of clinics in your neighborhood.

#3)  For additional testing, you can go to: http://www.requestatest.com.  There you can order specific lab tests and get them done for cheaper than going straight to the labs.

If you go to the SNHD, go early in the morning to avoid lines.  Be sure to drink lots of water as there is a piss test.  And there’s a blood test (ugh, i hate needles!).  If you have an active sex life with more than one partner then you should get tested no less than once every three months.  Just don’t forget the condom and be sure to take a look at the goods before getting down to business!

So that’s it.  Good luck, safe sex, peace, love and happiness

Here’s a  list of common household things that can be potentially harmful to you.

Your kitchen sponge
Maybe you’ve heard about the germs on your kitchen sponge (gross news flash—there may be as many as 20 million microbes on it right now). But here’s the deal: Your method for “cleaning” that sponge may be leaving it loaded with potentially hazardous bacteria that can make you ill. Researchers at the USDA’s Agricultural Research Service found that some common cleaning methods for sponges—soaking them in a bleach solution, lemon juice or water—did not eradicate the germs.
 
What to do

The best ways to clean a dirty sponge, they say, are in the microwave (on high for one minute) and in the dishwasher, which will kill 99.9 percent of all germs.
Your bed
Have you been on a trip recently? If so, you may have brought home some hitchhikers—of the creepy-crawly variety. Bedbugs, tiny bloodthirsty insects, are hosts to organisms that cause hepatitis B and Chagas disease, say health experts. But the real problem seems to be the infections and allergic reactions that can sometimes result from bedbug bites.
 
According to the Environmental Protection Agency, bedbugs are on the rise and becoming an increasing health problem. The insects, which hide in the crevices of mattresses and bedding, are showing up everywhere, from hostels to the swankiest hotels, and they often find their way into people’s luggage, transporting themselves to unsuspecting homes.
 
What to do

If you’ve done some traveling recently, and especially if you’ve noticed any mysterious bug bites, wash everything in your luggage and consider scrubbing your suitcase with a stiff brush before giving it a good vacuuming.

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EXTRACT FROM DOUG COPP’S ARTICLE ON THE: “TRIANGLE OF LIFE”

My name is Doug Copp. I am the Rescue Chief and Disaster Manager of the American Rescue Team International (ARTI), the world’s most experienced rescue team. The information in this article will save lives in an earthquake.

I have crawled inside 875 collapsed buildings, worked with rescue teams from 60 countries, founded rescue teams in several countries, and I am a member of many rescue teams from many countries…

I was the United Nations expert in Disaster Mitigation for two years. I have worked at every major disaster in the world since 1985, except for simultaneous disasters.

The first building I ever crawled inside of was a school in Mexico City during the 1985 earthquake. Every child was under its desk. Every child was crushed to the thickness of their bones. They could have survived by lying down next to their desks in the aisles. It was obscene, unnecessary and I wondered why the children were not in
the aisles. I didn’t at the time know that the children were told to hide under something.

Simply stated, when buildings collapse, the weight of the ceilings falling upon the objects or furniture inside crushes these objects, leaving a space or void next to them. This space is what I call the “triangle of life”.      Read more…

Check out http://www.foodincmovie.com for more info on this movie. This will open up your eyes!! Do you know that you can be sued for saying you don’t like meat in public? Do you know that over 90% of our soy comes from genetically altered seeds? And the antibiotics used to grow corn and the steroids and hormones used to pump up cattle and chicken are flowing in your blood stream and F’ing your body up?!

It goes on and on.. and of course, you probably have no idea how INHUMANE the food industry is in growing and slaughtering the animals we eat. Even Satan would be like “Damn!”. I’m going to local farmers markets for now on for my food. You can find one close to you at http://www.eatwellguide.org.

I can’t wait to feel the difference now that I’m more aware of what I put in my body. We live our life as an ignorant mass, just like cattle, following the herd to fast food joints and fueling the system that only cares about the bottom dollar and could give a damn about our health! I’m disgusted at the Government and it’s corruption.. the FDA and USDA.. all being paid off to pass the worst bills that don’t alert the consumer or protect them from genetically and chemically altered food. It’s all about the meat and soy industry getting paid, about McDonalds lining up their pockets.. People.. wake up! Stop shoving food in your mouth unless you have some kind of idea of where it comes from!

Okay I’m done venting.. just my two cents..

Please go to the Food Inc website and sign the petition for better food guidelines for our schools.

So it’s been almost a couple years now that I’ve been single.. longest I’ve been on my own since 2000. I had three girlfriends from 2000 – 2007. So it’s been an adjustment. Why am I telling the world all of this? Who knows.. I feel like blogging so why not. It’s therapy to me so doesn’t matter if people read it or not. This is like a diary and I never thought much of those back in the day. But sometimes I like getting stuff off my chest and later it’s interesting to read what I wrote.

Sooo.. yeah it’s been a couple years of rolling solo. But am I unhappy? Hell no! I’m actually very happy because for the first time, I know what it means to truly love yourself. See, I never loved myself enough in the past and I felt the need to have to have someone else love me in order for me to feel better out myself. The saying “you have to love yourself before you can truly lover someone else” is absolutely true. I feel more ready to be in a relationship and to truly be in love then I ever have! So why am I single? Well for one, I’m super picky about who I give my heart to next. The one who gets it is gonna have to really deserve it. And it’s also because I’ve decided to focus on priorities and those are my family right now. I want to take care of them, help them all out.. they’re going through tough times because of the recession and I feel like the kid in the family who has a shot at truly making a difference. Read more…