The shoot went well, got some great workout videos made for the websites. Afterwards, I could barely keep my eyes open as I drove back home.. but back to last night..

I had no plans to go out and had told my friends no to the idea, but I ended up going out around 11pm anyways because I hadn’t had a chance to take out my new business partner. He’s a cool guy named Steve and we started a new project together and I thought going out would be a good way to bond. It was fun hanging out at Flirt and then Voodoo (it was freezing on the balcony! great house DJ tho..). We ended up going to LAX so Steve could meet up with a friend. There I hung out with four girls who had come to see the Chipps show and a guy from Argentina. Markus and his girl got lost somewhere in VIP and I was just chilling with the group. I had wanted to go home a LONG time before all that but I didn’t want to be lame as I had invited Steve out in the first place so I hung out as long as I could. The whole time I just felt like I was wasting time.. the club was beyond packed.. drunk douchebags everywhere.. and I had a long day training at the gym so I was worn out and wanting to sleep..

But I survived! I took the group over to Cathouse and we disbanded shortly thereafter. I got Steve back to his car and finally got home around 4. Now here’s what happened after..

I woke up to hearing myself screaming around 8am. I had only gotten a few hours of sleep but I was totally awake now. I remember the dream, or should I say nightmare, completely. It was weird.. in my dream, I had woken up from my bed, feeling very drunk (I know the feeling too well!) and I staggered out of bed. I was in the hallway looking downstairs and I could see some random party people below. I asked them what happened and one of the strangers said, “last night, we asked if you’d just have some drinks with us since it was a special occassion and you did!”. I felt as though they had pressured me into drinking and I had gave in and I felt incredible remorse and anger for what I had done. I yelled at them, “Why did you let me drink? Or why did you even ask me to drink, you know I quit for this year!”. I was so angry I started screaming at the top of my lungs and I began punching huge holes in the wall. I was yelling “FUUUUUUUUUUCCKKK!!” and I remember how horrible I had felt as I had broken the most important promise I had made.. the one to myself. I had promised myself I would not drink in 2009 and here I was, only a couple weeks into it, and I was waking up hammered. I can’t describe how bad I felt.. it wasn’t like the past where I slipped up and went “oh well, try again next year”. It was like I had lost all power and strength that I had been feeling the past few weeks while being sober and healthy. Next I remembered walking around the house and seeing that my stuff was missing and I realized that I had been robbed while I was passed out drunk. That’s when I screamed so loud that I woke myself up from this nightmare!

So after waking up, I couldn’t help but think about what the meaning of this dream was…   An suddenly it dawned on me..    and as I began to realize the meaning of all of it, I smiled

I now know that I WILL NOT break this promise to myself. And I realize the power that I have to make my future happen. The choices we make determine our future. And I know that I will be strong and will call my own shots! I had been asked out and tempted by the same people that I couldn’t say no to in the past three weeks. I passed each test and with each success, my belief in my self-discipline has grown. I now feel unstoppable. That dream was evidence of that.. and I realized that a promise to yourself is one of the most important promises that you have to keep. If you break a promise you make to someone else, they can understand and forgive you and you move on. When you break a promise to yourself, you take away the strength of your commitments and you become weaker inside.

I’m going to write a book one day. On buildling the muscles inside.. the heart.. the mental.. the spiritual…

It’s my dream.. my passion to make a positive impact on this world. If I can help just one person, than it’s worth it. But with these blogs, these websites.. my businesses.. it’s designed to help a lot more than that  ;)   .. . Wish me luck!

2. Be awesome on the inside.  One thing about Vegas is that I’m so annoyed with are the people who are easily impressed by superficial things.  Like the guys who drive fancy cars or wear expensive clothes or a bling bling watch who think that acting like king of the club is the way to go.  They’re just trying to make up for what they lack on the inside.  But I don’t know what’s more sad.  These guys or the chicks that fall for that crap.  This city just makes you think that money is all that matters.  I’ve never had an abundance of money, I’ve had to work hard for everything that I got.  But I never met a girl cuz of the chain I wore or the crew that I hung around with.  Girls like me for who I am.  Mostly because I truly love myself and not in a narcissistic way.  I’m confident, not cocky.  I know my worth.  And I won’t settle for less. Ever again.

3. Be aware of the warning signs.  If you sense drama early on, don’t think it’ll just go away in the future.  People are who they are and rarely change.  If I sense drama or B.S., I walk away.  There’s plenty of fish in the sea.  I don’t go for just any girl who bites on my hook. (that sounded dirty I know!)

4. Thou shall not covet thy neighbors wife.  In other words, your friend’s girl is off limits!  I don’t care even if they broke up, you shouldn’t ever mess with your boy’s ex.  Aren’t there enough girls out there anyways? You’re a pathetic loser scumbag if you try to hook up with a friend’s girl behind his back. I believe in Karma and she is one cold-hearted bitch!

5. You are a product of the people you surround yourself with.  If you want to be a success, wake up and spend the day with people who truly are a success (in life, not just money).  If you want to get wasted all the time and barely get by, then be around people who do that.  If you care about others and want to make a difference, join the peace corp or some local outreach group and spread the love.  You will always turn out like the people you hang around with.  This is a FACT.

6. Love others and have a higher purpose in life.  If the only reason you wake up is to satisfy yourself and ignore the rest of the world, then you might as well stay in bed because the world doesn’t need another A-hole floating around. Sorry if I sound bitter but I’m over people that use others for selfish means. I wish these people would wake up and realize there is more to life than this little city called las vegas.  It’s fun here but it’s nothing compared to the rest of the world. I’ve been lucky to have travelled all over Europe and Asia and I got to experience their cultures. And I miss being around people who are all about family and happiness and not just about partying and trying to impress others.

7. Sleep is great.

8. You are what you eat.

9. Dream big. If not, how else will you achieve greatness?

okay, so enough blah blah blah.. i’m not trying to condemn anyone or act like i’m above it all.. if you like to party and get crazy, go for it!  we can still be cool.. I’m just not getting caught up in that scene anymore.. i got big goals and want people in my life that can help me reach them.. anyways…. just food for thought for those bored enough to read my blogs.  good night

People come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime. When you know which one it is, you will know what to do for that person.

When someone is in your life for a REASON, it is usually to meet a need you have expressed. They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with guidance and support, to aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually. They may seem like a godsend and they are. They are there for the reason you need them to be. Then, without any wrongdoing on your part or at an inconvenient time, this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end. Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away. Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand. What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled, their work is done. The prayer you sent up has been answered and now it is time to move on.

Some people come into your life for a SEASON, because your turn has come to share, grow or learn. They bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh. They may teach you something you have never done. They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy. Believe it, it is real. But only for a season.

LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons, things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation. Your job is to accept the lesson, love the person and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships and areas of your life. It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant.

Thank you for being a part of my life, whether you were a reason, a season or a lifetime.

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“Love all, trust a few, do wrong to none.”
–William Shakespeare

Find inspiration in every relationship you make–good or bad.

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“It takes but one positive thought when given a chance to survive and thrive to overpower an entire army of negative thoughts.”
Robert H. Schuller

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THE COMPANY YOU KEEP

It Is Better To Be Alone Than In The Wrong Company!

Tell me who your best friends are, and I will tell you who you are.

If you run with wolves, you will learn how to howl and bark at the moon.

But, if you associate with eagles, you will learn how to soar to great heights.

A mirror reflects a man’s face, but what he is really like is shown by the kind of friends he chooses.

The simple but true fact of life is that you become like those with whom you closely associate for the good and the bad.

The less you associate with some people, the more your life will improve. =)

Any time you tolerate mediocrity in others, it increases your mediocrity.

An important attribute in successful people is their impatience with negative thinking and negative acting people.

As you grow, your associates will change.

Some of your friends will not want you to go on.

They will want you to stay where they are.

Friends that don’t help you climb will want you to crawl.

Your friends will stretch your vision or choke your dream.

Those that don’t increase you will eventually decrease you.

Consider This:

Never receive counsel from unproductive people.

Never discuss your problems with someone incapable of contributing to the solution, because those who never succeed themselves are always first to tell you how.

Not everyone has a right to speak into your life.

You are certain to get the worst of the bargain when you exchange ideas with the wrong person.

Don’t follow anyone who’s not going anywhere.

With some people you spend an evening: with others you invest it.

Be careful where you stop to inquire for directions along the road of life.

Wise is the person who fortifies his life with the right friendships.

Choose to rise…Don’t settle…and go for your dreams!!!

And most of all let God lead you in everything you do

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This truth goes both ways…

If a woman wants you, nothing can keep her away. If she doesn’t want you, nothing can make her stay.

Stop making excuses for a woman and her behavior. Allow your intuition (or spirit) to save you from heartache. Stop trying to change yourself for a relationship that’s not meant to be. Slower is better. Never live your life for a woman before you find what makes you truly happy.

If a relationship ends because she was not treating you as you deserve then hell no, you can’t “be friends”. A friend wouldn’t mistreat a friend.

Don’t settle. If you feel like she is stringing you along, then she probably is. Don’t stay because you think “it will get better.” You’ll be mad at yourself a year later for staying when things are not better. The only person you can control in a relationship is you.

Always have your own set of friends separate from her. Maintain boundaries in how a girl treats you. If something bothers you, speak up. Never let a woman know everything. she will use it against you later. You cannot change a woman’s behavior. Change comes from within. Don’t EVER make her feel she is more important than you are…even if she has more education or a better job. Do not make her into a quasi-god. she is a woman, nothing more nothing less. Never let a woman define who you are. Never borrow someone else’s woman.

If she cheated with you, she’ll cheat on you.

A woman will only treat you the way you ALLOW her to treat you. All women are NOT bitches. You should not be the one doing all the bending…compromise is a two way street. You need time to heal between relationships…there is nothing fun about baggage… Deal with your issues before pursuing a new relationship. You should never look for someone to COMPLETE you… a relationship consists of two WHOLE individuals… look for someone complimentary…not supplementary. Dating is fun…even if she doesn’t turn out to be Ms. Right. Make her miss you sometimes… when a woman always know where you are, and you’re always readily available to her – she takes it for granted.

And don’t fully commit to a woman who doesn’t give you everything that you need. Keep her in your radar but get to know others.

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“The Window On A New Tommorrow” by VisionaryImagist Joey

“Each day dawns with a new beginning, a new chance and a new opportunity to start all over again. The regrets of yesterday’s mistakes, troubles and indiscretions vanish in the brilliant sunshine of a new morning. I awaken and I am reborn each and every day. It becomes my decision whether I wish to start fresh or remain tied to the “hitching post” of my own personal history. Yesterday is gone and is but a fleeting memory and tomorrow is but a vision of things to come. So it is today, the present, in which I find myself. I cannot escape the fact that I must abide in the “now”. I cannot evade this elemental truth. So, if I live today as best as I can all my yesterdays will become fond memories of joy and happiness and my every tomorrow will be filled with hope and spacious dreams. So, I must look well to this very moment, this very day, in which I find myself. I must chose to do the next “right thing” if I wish to be filled with abundance and joy. It is in this daily journey that I will find the peace and fulfillment that I desire.”

- thanks Noelle
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“God will deal you the cards but it’s up to you how you play them”

- Me

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“Girls are like parking spaces.  All the good ones are taken and the rest of them are handicapped”

- Josh