The Wall

So it’s been almost a couple years now that I’ve been single.. longest I’ve been on my own since 2000. I had three girlfriends from 2000 – 2007. So it’s been an adjustment. Why am I telling the world all of this? Who knows.. I feel like blogging so why not. It’s therapy to me so doesn’t matter if people read it or not. This is like a diary and I never thought much of those back in the day. But sometimes I like getting stuff off my chest and later it’s interesting to read what I wrote.

Sooo.. yeah it’s been a couple years of rolling solo. But am I unhappy? Hell no! I’m actually very happy because for the first time, I know what it means to truly love yourself. See, I never loved myself enough in the past and I felt the need to have to have someone else love me in order for me to feel better out myself. The saying “you have to love yourself before you can truly lover someone else” is absolutely true. I feel more ready to be in a relationship and to truly be in love then I ever have! So why am I single? Well for one, I’m super picky about who I give my heart to next. The one who gets it is gonna have to really deserve it. And it’s also because I’ve decided to focus on priorities and those are my family right now. I want to take care of them, help them all out.. they’re going through tough times because of the recession and I feel like the kid in the family who has a shot at truly making a difference.

So my goal is to become wealthy enough to be able to help them financially when needed and make sure we all have a great future. I don’t need material things to feel happy. But I would like to be comfortable.. have a nice house, pool, car.. freedom to travel and go on vacations.. raise kids and give them 100%.. so in order to have all that, I’m 100% focused on my businesses. One joke I make is when girls ask if I have a girlfriend.. I say “yeah I do. her name’s Media One Pro”. So yeah, I’m kinda engaged to my business! But it’s worth it to me because right now, no girl is going to help me take it to the top. If anything, they’ve been more distraction than helpful in the past. I’d like to think that one special girl was out there who could help make my life better.. someone who turned me on inside and out, who laughed with me, who shared the same values, who supported my career and loved me 1000%. That’d be great.. But I’m not going to sit around and wait and hope for her to turn up! All I can do is make myself be the best me that I can be and when that one girl comes along who’s worth it.. it’ll happen. But for now, the goal is to build up my company and have a great 2010! So far everythings been going right.. business has shot through the roof and I’ve had to hire more employees and spend more money on building the infrastructure.. it’s crazy how much money I spend.. I work 16 hours a day and I don’t have enough money to buy a ticket home to visit my family for Thanksgiving.. but I know that this will pay off.. for any business to succeed, you have to be passionate and you have to be willing to give up a lot in order for it to get to the next level… it’s crazy how I forget to eat or take breaks throughout the day.. i’m so determined to make this happen!

If all continues to go well, then I can take a nice break next summer.. and not just any break but one in style!! I want first class.. Bahamas.. Philippines.. Hawaii.. anywhere that’s warm and has great room service.. i’m going VIP for two weeks and turning my phone off.. that’s it! And when I come back, continue building my empire.

Okay, blah blah blah.. done with this.. gonna head to gym, start my new training method.. i’ll write about it later.. it’s a combo of lifting, boxing drills, and ergoscue method. Also started new eating plan too.. fresh veg’s all week from the market.. gonna look and feel my best! alright, peace y’all.