The Wall

What does “spiritual warrior” mean? Well, the tattoo on my back represents that. Although the characters means “inner energy” and “warrior”, i decided to make up my own creation and i gave that combination the name “spiritual warrior”. And what that means is simply I fight with my spirit. I will fight for my family’s survival and I will battle against my own inner demons. My goal is simply peace and happiness. And I will attain that by strengthening my will every day.

You see, I can train at the gym and lift weights and hit bags and spar with people and maybe that will allow me to knock some people out. But my greatest adversary is not someone on this earth.. it’s my own inner demon that lies within myself. Punching out someone takes a few seconds and little energy. To knock out a demon takes a lifetime. And the demon is what really matters. He is what causes me real pain. He is what stops me from reaching my potential. He is what keeps me from truly being happy.

So I begin my path again as a spiritual warrior. I continue where I left off in March. I had started the year on the best note ever. Along the way, I got lost. Forgot the path that I was on and struggled to remember where I had been.

Now I am focused. I had to cleanse myself. I did this by almost killing myself. Don’t worry, I’m not suicidal. But I had to inflict enough pain so I would never ever forget. I now have someone who is providing me with a map. And I have great friends who have come out of nowhere to offer support. I was lost but now I’m found!

If you’re reading this, don’t think I’m saying this as a cry for help or think I was in some deep depression recently. I had my ups and downs as does everyone in life. But it’s time I used this brain to solve these problems in my life. God made me smart but I still make dumb decisions! Now I’m looking to make only good ones.

There may come another 30 day challenge. Maybe I’ll make it longer. Maybe I’ll tell you what the challenge is. Maybe I won’t. I write these thoughts online in my journal because its therapeutic. It helps me remember if I write it down. I often reread my thoughts so I can see where my progress is. And sometimes, you never know if someone reads this and somehow in someway, it ends up helping them too.

My life coach reminds me of what my purpose is every day with random text messages. I appreciate them Marty! What I want to do is help others in life. That’s who I am. That’s who I’ll always be. But I have to help myself first. Once I’ve figured that out, I’ll be sure to post the answers.

Enough typing, eyes getting tired from staring at screen. Peace love and happiness!

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